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hello? hello?

2009-02-20T11:33:00.001-05:00

hey, amy, you there?

2007-07-17T20:36:00.000-04:00

2007-04-26T14:28:00.000-04:00

its been awhile... spring has sprung, finals have become final, and allergens are ruining my life.

i cannot figure out why i am so incredibly fatigued. i was hoping that i had a thyroid issue - it would explain the exhaustion, and i'd probably accredit my "bad attitude" and "mean-ness" to it.

as i always do when late april hits: i met a new boy. i half give it two weeks, have give it until tonight, half don't really care - all is well and fun and drunk.

whiny cat hungry pig

2007-04-08T05:06:00.000-04:00

i go away for two days and i come back and these animals are all "give me food" and "entertain me with that yarn, bitch."

i'm really glad they're both alive and well. i didn't want to leave them, but i'd had a crappy week and caught a crappy cold and needed a relaxing weekend at the berkowitz's, eatin food and playin scrabble and readin newspapers.

i read "digressions on some poems by frank o'hara" as well, and i heartily recommend it!

i SAW jacqueline! it was like a dream. it was the barbeque she always talked about in her sleep. it was very nice. good frisbee, good food. happy birthday to her beth.

yes philly is really really nice. i will probably go there this weekend.

i'm unemployed again, which has its ups and downs.

i saw grindhouse with lex tonight and it was glorious. also drank and ate "frites."

i'm supposed to get up early for easter tomorrow but i don't think i'll manage it...

xo.

2007-04-05T17:20:00.000-04:00

so, after the weekend, and after an extended visit in the winter, i have decided i really like philly. i like it more than i like chicago and brooklyn. i like it a whole lot so i think i'm going to plan on moving there winter of '09 when i graduate 4 real.

that shit is gonna be so hot. i'm drinking my dinner right now and have to type up a quick assignment.

see ya on the fun side.

thomas is stuck in the elevator

2007-03-19T19:29:00.000-04:00

thomas is stuck in the elevator. i am laughing hysterically about it. "is he okay? what's he saying" "i don't know, he made some catty remark, i didn't quite hear."

this weekend i took the GRE and i did good. then i went to see nicole's band and they were good.

the cat is living with the landlord again. there was another stray cat in our hallway today. there are some feral cats in steve's neighborhood that have so many whiskers that they look like mustaches.

me and the mixtape club traded cds finally. we're still looking for a name for the mixtape club. i need some serious inspiration for my next cd because i'm tired of a lot of the music i have.

music i have seen recently:

suishou no fune
the ravages (nicole)
some bowerbird show?
marissa nadler
dalek
mirah/the blow
dan deacon/ryan sawyer/thurston moore

up until sophomore year of college, i had a comprehensive list of every band i'd ever seen, but it's pretty hard to remember everything now. oh well.

geoff told me to blog about his surprise party but that was so long ago now. i made red velvet cake! we surprised him. mary and steve and stu and ben came. there are a bunch of funny pictures. me and mary got into a stoned argument about whether room temperature or ice cold water was better, and by the time we'd finished debating the ice in her glass had melted, so i won.

put me in your mouth.

2007-03-10T20:11:00.000-05:00

after eating delicious gourmet breakfast sandwiches this morning, i got a flat. jenko saved the day with a new tire and tube as well as service. she was paid with popsicles and beers. she saves my life quite often. it was like so hot today.

i am in the market for a new bike. robin and david are coaching me on this. for some reason i'm needing a lot of hand-holding in this process. i basically do not know what i want to buy and i'm flexible with money (how lucky do i feel?). look out for a dial-a-pizza-bike.

i'm listening to a song by a friend. the chorus is "just put me in your mouth." its also sung by a chorus of people (atleast 4). i love and hate it. love the sound, hate the lyric.

i'm looking for tattoo placement suggestions. its small but contains numerous components: line drawing of a cat w bunny ears and racoon tail, a lopsided heart, and the text "bunny hop" as written and drawn by maribeth margaret.

see you in april little bunny hop (guinea pig hop and kitten hop).

switch to the new version

2007-03-09T01:09:00.000-05:00

well, well, well.

yesterday our landlord came upstairs with a kitten and said "you can give her something to eat if you want. she eats everything. she even eats rice with us. she even gets in the shower with us."

and then he left. and now we have a cat.

we think this is because we told him we saw a mouse in the kitchen. he said "i'll take care of it." i guess he took care of it.

she quickly got down to business and jumped on top of the guinea pig cage. guinea pig was quickly moved to my room. she's adjusted well.

the kitten's pretty cute. i'm a little bit allergic to her. i relate to her a lot though. she just had a fight with the couch cushion and totally won.

tonight we saw a concert in bushwick. the best two sets were: dan deacon and ryan sawyer. magic markers were boring (sorry). we got some nacho pretzel combos and split a cab home with sean and judy.

also recently i saw: marissa nadler, dalek, the blow & mirah. and i finally found a photobooth, at the bar where we saw dalek. this has been a little quest of mine.

i think me and chris are gonna visit boston in mid-april. happy birthday eeeee monen. i would also like to visit baltimore!

i have been baking a lot of cookies lately. i could probably start a baking blog. but then i'd be a girl with a baking blog.

okay, time for bed.

upgrade u.

2007-03-06T23:11:00.000-05:00

i barely made it through last week: break in (burgled!), sinusitis (fever!), and missed exam (make up!) were really struggling. i don't want to get into it or i may cry.

amy, apparently our blog needs an upgrade (according to google) or something. you also need to upgrade and post. i guess my loves were hard to follow.

speaking of - i just happened upon some emails to justin. as little as i care for him now, i think i really was in love with him. i'm not gonna deny it. i was really nice and i'm really proud of that.

i'm on the hunt for a new bike as soon as i figure out my frame size exactly.

i'm really into all kinds of dietary supplements lately. its an expensive thing to get into.

i wouldn't mind going on a date. i'm gonna try to rage with monen and nadeo and goligo and alex this weekend. that will be almost as good as a real date. c u next time.

i also have a bug that i suspect is a bed bug sealed in a plastic bag on my desk.

a tribute to all the boys i've ever loved...

2007-02-15T00:59:00.001-05:00

if it was dark in central park no one would even mug me

2007-02-13T14:48:00.000-05:00

that is a line from my favorite song which is "my hair" by skankin' pickle.

speaking of my hair, i got up "early" before work today and did a lot of stuff including finishing up my haircut. it is still long but it no longer looks overly fluffy in the back. i am sleeker than i was yesterday.

also i cuddled with my guinea pig, who i woke up in the middle of a nap. she was totally sleepy and confused but seemed happy that she was getting attention.

then i went to the post office which is right on fulton street. awesome!

then i walked around and finally went into the thrift store on flatbush which is surprisingly well-stocked. i will definitely go back when i have more time.

most productive morning ever.

mmkay now i will work.

my roommate's band is playing a show this weekend. i'm excited and proud.

it is cool, jacq. i can handle you blogging elsewhere. i better be getting a cute valentine in the mail, though.

ok you're never gonna guess...

2007-02-06T15:29:00.000-05:00

you're never gonna guess whose hair is totally out of control...

mine. really.

the squirrel died in the stove. i found it yesterday after i made squash in the oven and ate it. it smelled terrible but tasted delicious. there is a dead squirrel movie here.

in other news ferris visited this past weekend. we got drunk and went shopping. we giggled and were pretty blatantly mean to one another. we sweated it out at night and made a huge mess. here is a picture of us outside. david goligorski made me that hat.

i went on a date last week. patrick leaves for vacation tomorrow so we are going to go dancing tonight! jenko and i have been hanging out a lot. charlotte is really really cute. she's really into the mary j blige and ludacris song. she dances a lot and i've taught her how to "wiggle" like a crocodile. she knows all these really cute baby signs like "more" (she does this when she wants me to keep tossing her in the air, or when i sneeze - she thinks its funny.), "cracker", "bee", "dog", "cat," "elephant," "drink" (as in booze), "food," but she has yet to grasp "pizza."

i saw pans labrynth yesterday. all im gonna say is that i was already naseous from the squirrel squash, the smell of singed/roasted squirrel and i wasn't ready to see that dude get cut in the face, that other dude hit in the face with a bottle a million times, that dude get tortured with that nasty hand, and that other dude get his leg sawed off. what did amaze me was that girl stayed so calm for the whole time.

i've watched a lot of movies since the beginning of 07. i have a list in a journal of all of them. i've read a bunch of good books too. ask me about them. yep- they are also in that little journal. maybe i'll reproduce it in here someday.

lastly: amy - bad news 4 u. i'm starting a new blog. it will be my own. it will be called "babe pile" and it will have all my recent amazing crafts.

2007-01-21T15:56:00.000-05:00

good news:
-had a rowdy weekend.
-they sell real dead beetles at the natural history museum ($25).
-i don't have homework yet.
-my room looks amazing.

in conclusion:
i'm having a blast.

i'm this close to putting the guinea pig back on craigslist

2007-01-19T03:16:00.000-05:00

because she is not into hanging out. she will only sit still in your lap if you are feeding her a carrot. that's lame. all my other friends will hang out with me when i am NOT feeding them carrots so wtf.

housewarming party was fun but terrifyingly crowded. made chocolate cupcakes with buttercream frosting with words inside of them. got guinea pig advice from one of the editors at my old job.

once, at my old job, the editor who worked on the same books as the guinea pig editor (they were this awesome pair of weirdos among not very weird people) sent an email to "ALL NY EDITORIAL" saying something like "please don't think this is creepy, but does anyone know the best way to preserve a dead butterfly? i just found a dead butterfly and i'd like to preserve it. i've started researching this online, but any advice would be appreciated. i would like to emphasize that i did not kill the butterfly. i found it dead in the park."

today i:

argued for 20 minutes about getting retroactive coverage with my health insurance company and totally won
considered quitting coffee so i can go back to it and appreciate it more

@@@@ass

2007-01-11T19:32:00.000-05:00

steve is pissed off because he doesnt have any vowels but literati won't let you say curse words so he keeps on typing stuff like:

herpes
buttsex
cornholing
@@@@ass

what was that, anyway? shitass?

lookout, weekend. here i come.

you must not know 'bout me.

2007-01-04T00:53:00.000-05:00

santa came to my house and delivered some wonderful gifts. among them my favorites were a teacup, small glass figures of birds, cactus plant food, and a french press.

new years came and philadelphia delivered a cute boy that refused my phone number, serious dancing, vip, a party complete with rapper, fog machine, strobe light, but mostly just 7 days and nights of being hammered drunk.

i'll post more later after i shove this ecstacy pill up my ass.

hey man, want a piece of chicken?

2006-12-28T02:20:00.000-05:00

someone just offered someone some chicken outside.

chris's hair is long enough for a ponytail.

i got anne sexton's complete works for christmas.

i saw jack and jeffrey lewis last night and they were phenomenal. then i ran into tasha and her sister on the street and went to a house party at someone's parents house and martin was there and it felt like being home on christmas break and we danced to they might be giants and everybody wanted 40s except me and martin.

today was my mom's birthday and we got cheesecake at juniors.

my glands feel swollen and i think i'm getting sick.

i made an origami penguin tree ornament.

all we did in albany was play scrabble. jon reminded me how to play "scrabble attack" where you turn the tiles over and then flip them one by one until you see a four letter word. you can take any 4+ letter words you see, and you can steal other people's words by anagramming them with at least one more letter from the middle.

you want some chicken?

2006-12-22T16:11:00.000-05:00

i have a minorly infected toe and still have yet to wash my hair. baby jesus will save me because of it.

i also have a minor cold and haven't done much of anything since i got home. there is something about cleveland that makes me incredibly tired, cranky, and depressed. maybe i'll rage tonight anyway.

drinks in the middle of the day with elizabeth ruled yesterday, and i got to sit on santa's lap. i will post the pictures later.

2006-12-21T13:25:00.000-05:00

apparently this morning i was laughing very hard in my sleep.

2006-12-17T02:34:00.000-05:00

i spent my chanukah gelt at a lesbian bar.

rager.bather.squeaker

2006-12-15T03:35:00.000-05:00

.rager.

rager/housewarming party/january party at my new apartment saturday the 13th. jacq, you say you like brooklyn? prove it by attending! and bring monen and naddeo and goligo et al. there will be glug and spudnuts.

.bather.

nicole said she heard someone "splashing around in the bath" at night and we thought she was crazy, but now i hear it too. clearly it is the ghost of someone who drowned in a bathtub.

.squeaker.

nyoko berkowitz is my baby guinea pig. she will coo if you pet her butt and feed her a carrot at the same time, unless you're steve, apparently. she also likes alfalfa hay and waddling.

2006-12-12T00:25:00.000-05:00

i love brooklyn.
i may move there.
i love jawbreaker.
i may invest in a complete discography.
i love sleeping alone.
i may get cold tonight - we are out of oil.
i love being broke.
i may use this as a good excuse to stay home and work on my zines.

2006-12-06T22:01:00.000-05:00

in my quest to find a jumper pattern or even a good picture of a jumper i would like to make for my friend emily, i found pictures of freshly dead "jumpers" from the world trade center. no, i will not post them here.

2006-12-05T20:33:00.000-05:00

re: philly. rain check me.
re: nyc. see you there friday.

we had a squirrel in the house today. we decorated the living room yesterday. my group presented our "anatomy comedy skit" today. it was quite hilarious.

you're psyched for a new tattoo soon? me too!

so weak...

2006-12-04T15:25:00.000-05:00

weakend recap:

thursday: figure out justin has been dating ex gf siobhan since we broke up two months ago. receive a weak email from him regarding this attempting to "prevent" me from hearing it from someone else. fortunately i already found this out. freaked out, studied for exam. [note: he has never said he is sorry.]

friday: panic attack 5 am. went to class looking terrible in a great outfit. sat through class. took my exam. went home. got drunk. giggled. hung out with vic. went to patty's. went to bed circa 3 am.

saturday: panic attack 7 am. drove to maine 10 am. hiked the woods. shopped. ate delicious pork chops. drank a bottle of wine. watched two terrible movies. slept so well. snuggled puppies.

sunday: slept in until 11 am. woke due to knock at the door - beaver carcasses had been dropped off for dogs. snuggled puppies in bed. drank coffee. hiked hawk mountain - gorgeous. ran errands - drove grandma in my car! cut down a branch for christmas tree. ate delicious dinner. watched school of rock. drank a bottle of wine. cramed the branch into my baby car. sleep sleep.

monday: slept until 9 am. woke due to puppies bounding into bed. ate breakfast. said bye. packed car. drove back straight to school. ate lunch. here i am.

all is well though, in case you were wondering. i'm only hurt because he turned out to be the shitbag i thought he was when i first met him. he did not belong with me in the first place. i have too much to accomplish in my life to be wasting my time and money with a person that has no ambition, that doesn't have fun, that is a liar and a deceitful person, has no remorse for what he's done and his lack of honesty, has never really cared for someone (me) he's said "love you" to, and is as mature as a 13 year old boy. i've learned my lessons: the hoodrats all hang together. they know who they are, and i know who i am.

my plot to make everyone nocturnal

2006-11-29T02:48:00.000-05:00

seriously, wtf. why don't i have anyone to hang out with me at 3am? i'm bored. this is why i'm getting alexis and steve and geoff to all work at my job and stay up late with me.

i should be packing. i'm moving on friday! here is a picture i drew of my new apartment:

the room with the A on it is mine.

some dudes came by and bought my big dresser today and it made me pretty sad to sell it... i wasn't really ready to let go of it but they had their station wagon downstairs and so i dumped all my clothes out of it and let them take it.

moving shouldn't be so bad. i'm buying a lot of the furniture that's already in the room, and nicole's dad has a station wagon i can use, and the girls who are moving out are nice, and chris will be here friday to help, and my dad amazingly doesn't mind reinstalling the air conditioner and the lamps he just put up in this apartment. i think i'm going to paint the room purple.

i really really hate packing. hahha i just noticed my ironing board is still in the plastic it came in... i didn't even touch it. okay. i'm packing tomorrow. i swear.

"people in cleveland are depressed. i'm gonna hang out with them."

2006-11-28T22:37:00.000-05:00

thanksgiving was pretty much awesome. it was a year of new traditions and even more delicious food. ever since my grandmother died, we have all gotten so much closer. i'm sure she smiles down on us because she devoted her life to bringing our two families together atleast once a week.

i saw about a hundred million friends from middle school and high school. elizabeth herget gave me an amazing jacket and various other incredible birthday gifts. the drama was all positive and i can't thank my friends more for being the awesome people they are. in two weeks i'll be in philly hanging with b and b anyway and i'm sure i'll come back then too and post how i love them a lot. beth is an amazingly strong and inspiring person.

i got piss drunk last night by like 9 pm at the sligo pub. i love it. that is what we do and i love that i'm (really) doing well in school yet living life and having fun. "fuck hard, live life, drink beer."

i'm really quite happy.

christmas vacation

2006-11-24T18:34:00.000-05:00

cleve is great. i also had a wonderful time at patrick and evi's bonfire before i left. i was finally feeling better and so i drank whiskey and had a blast singing pretty much any and every song i knew the words to, that patrick or peter knew the guitar to. it lasted for hours.

thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. it was especially eventful yesterday. we are all getting older, drinking more, and laughing a whole lot more. i'm so lucky to have the family that i do. above is a portion of the family applepicking in the fall.

yesterday we watched chevy chase:
“And I'm gonna look him straight in the eye, and I'm gonna tell him what a cheap, lying, no good, rotten, four-flushing, lowlife, snake-licking, dirt-eating, inbred, overstuffed, ignorant, blood-sucking, dog-kissing, brainless, dickless, hopeless, heartless, fat-ass, bug-eyed, stiff-legged, spiny-necked, worm-headed sack of monkey shit he is! Hallelujah! Holy shit! Where's the Tylenol!”

and arrested development was showing the entire season two on this weird channel that we get on the huge tv called hdnet:
"Michael: Not everything is strippers and booze and buckets of blood. Why do you guys have buckets of blood?
Gob: It's not real blood. It's, um, corn syrup and red dye. Juice.
Buster: We have unlimited juice? (laughs) This party is going to be off the hook."

it is ultimate...

2006-11-21T17:36:00.000-05:00

i want to get a job writing slogans that make other people fall in love.

if neal is only half in love with me, this gift i am making him will push him over the other half of that love ledge.

picture me right now, with sick eyes, perfect posture, and a fur hat perched on my head. or maybe this hat perched on my head...

i'm finally feeling better from this wretched sickness so i'm drinking beer. we babysat 2 mice yesterday and we want to adopt them permanently as pets (no, not pests!).

it is finally cold enough to wear my expensive boots.

2006-11-18T11:46:00.000-05:00

my auntie joy has outslept me today even though i am sick with a cold and cough. its the worst being sick because i always get depressed and wish i had some companion to take care of me. i woke up sad and missing justin this morning because i realize it has been a month and a half since we broke up - we don't talk and i find myself missing things that i'm not sure i'm entitled to miss. i felt pathetic for not being over it yet and emily said to me "it doesn't matter how long you were dating him, or how long you weren't dating him. you love him." maybe it was a little more dislike than love.

even though im sick and feeling babyish, i'm toughening up. toughening up as we speak! as i eat this apple pie for breakfast! i'm not even wearing socks even though my feet are freezing because i am that tough! i am tough enough that i'm hardly studying for a huge and hard exam monday! tough enough that i will probably wear a dress through the cold with a cold to maureen's play and then go party after on my bike to jp! tough enough that i wiped out on my bike two days ago and sustained only a few bruises! (that is the first crash that i haven't ended up in the hospital!) tough to say it was a little more dislike than love becasue that's a lie! tough enough that i tell you "good luck, get fucked," in closing!

sleep sleep sleep, go to sleep

2006-11-16T17:45:00.000-05:00

two hours of sleep last night, up at seven to meet the broker in brooklyn, paid my deposit in cash jesus christ.

having drinks with my poetry teacher tonight totally feels like a date.

yeah i am moving to pacific street with joon and nicole. we'll have a dressmaker's dummy in the living room. because nicole is a dressmaker i mean designer. i want to paint my room something between plum and fuschia.

i went to my mom's house to take a nap today and she read me a story from the believer to make me fall asleep. i don't think she's read to me since i was very tiny.

all i want to eat is cookies.

we got a new oven and me and gay roommate number two baked cookies and hung out. while they were in the oven he goes in the bathroom and says let's do a mask. for real. he's gay like gay people on sitcoms. it was a kiehl's mask and actually pretty great.

i'm listening to windy and carl. their music is so womb-y.

here's a picture i drew of them:

i'm currently obsessed with:

2006-11-14T11:57:00.000-05:00

-whiskeytown
-my new pink bag
-calling steev
-going to new orleans
-getting all my work done
-not showering
-health and fitness
-my new boots

the day after

2006-11-12T15:04:00.000-05:00

the day after your birthday is always the worst day. you are suddenly sober, and you start to remember all the people that forgot your birthday, like your friend (((ex))) boyfriend that you still love, your aunt and your grandma (the only living grandparent you have). you remember how much your feelings were hurt by another (((ex))) boyfriend that you still love, that you're still in love with, and you remember how on the previous night, on your one month break up anniversary, you were finally worn down enough, heartbroken enough to give up, and give him exactly what he wants - for you to do just that: give up. you kick yourself for not asking the other birthday boy at the bar on a date, and typically, you're hungover and tired enough from staying up late, drinking, and the rain outside to sort of forget how awesome all your friends are until you see the flowers balloons, presents, and ludacris posters hanging around the house. so in order to counter this feeling of lonliness, sadness, and feeling like vomitting from the coffee/beer combo, you send a message to your best friend of all time about the state of your life. you put your head down and begin to plow through the huge pile of graduate student homework that you seem to always have and hope that the day is over soon. you hope that you will be able to fall asleep early even though you slept in until 2 pm. you hope you start to hope again the next day: that the (((ex))) boyfriend that you still love, that you're still in love with, will reconsider and fix everything that is broken, that your friend (((ex))) boyfriend will say hes sorry for forgetting your birthday and visit you on thanksgiving to give you a big hug and kiss, and that grandma will buy you a new pink bike for your birthday that she forgot even though she has no memory deficits.

good luck, get fucked

2006-11-10T17:05:00.000-05:00

so, we've built up the house from 4 to 6 bros. boys are throwing me for a loop lately: zach took me by surprise just as i had stabilized myself to be "just friends," and justin came over last night and gave me a birthday present "that is shocking." i'm being surprised in good ways that lead to overthinking and transforming into surprised in bad ways. i've been on/off crippled with depression. it is my birthday tomorrow.
i'm going to lay in bed and read a book now. see ya.

long reach stapler

2006-11-08T23:40:00.000-05:00

i'm trying to teach myself how to make a book. i'm maybe buying a serious stapler on ebay. i'm reading about the term "printers spread."

my book will be called INSTRUCTIONS FOR HAMSTERS.

and today i got a job (thanks, craigslist) decorating cookies at a bakery in red hook. i start next tuesday.

and tomorrow i'm going ice skating with people from my old job.

hold on to me

2006-11-06T21:19:00.000-05:00

we had a killer halloween party. i'll post pictures later sometime.

just kicked it in chicago for 4 days. i had a great time. it was basically perfect.

gotta run to patty's birthday!
also my birthday is saturday. amy, come!

i said "hands up, who likes me?"

2006-11-06T02:44:00.000-05:00

all of a sudden jacq started blogging like crazy so i'm scrambling to catch up. today i went to the record fair with a bunch of boys who have record players and wandered around and tried to help steve find good bowie but mostly wandered around. it is not that fun looking through used cds. i brought along the last of the cookies i baked at lex's house the other night and gave them to geoff. i told him to give one to steve, but i think he forgot, and he is probably discovering it in his linty pocket right now, isn't he? have i mentioned there's a dead rat in my oven? that's why i have to bake at lex's apartment. because if i turn my oven on my apartment smells like burnt dead rat. it's really awful. we're working on getting a new oven. meanwhile i do my baking down the block. anyway, the cookies were really fantastic. i made them from a martha stewart recipe, which is funny. here it is: http://www.marthastewart.com/page.jhtml?type=content&id=recipe1235&catid=cat22041&navLevel=4

YEAH. you should go make those cookies, if you want. anyway then after the record fair i went to work, and work was cool because i finally got to watch a show that i sincerely enjoyed watching: family guy. mostly i get assigned shows about redecorating your home for various reasons with experts. and then i got out of work early so i called chris and we went to see borat. there was a line around the block. it was pretty awesome. the part where he forgives azamat by nuzzling him with his nose was pretty good.

last week i decided i really wanted a hamster so i found some on craigslist/free, but then i backed out, because the guy didn't want to give me the cage and i started doubting my hamster mom abilities. i haven't killed my jade plant yet, though, depression or no depression. now i'm thinking maybe i want a bunny.

my birthday party was pretty fun. i'm sorry you missed it, kish. for my birthday i got:
an origami fold-a-day calendar
a book by ian mcewan
very strong magnets
teacups
a laser printer
daisies
chinese lanterns
a visit to bamn

i'm gonna go try and get chris to stop doing homework and play scrabble now.

oh, and my gynecologist is moving to rome. i'm pissed at her.

oh, and here's a photo of my kitchen with the Exotic Lamps in it:

do you like me?

2006-11-01T23:45:00.000-05:00

zac is in the living room drinking gin and singing to the old 97's. he is going to take a bath.

the doctor made me feel good about being single/not having a boyfriend: "oh you probably don't have time or energy for that anyway..." but i gained 9 pounds since last year.

charlotte giggled all goddamned day. apparently charlotte loves to go to cvs and she ate like a champ. we met another charlotte that was half her age (literally) at the swingset.

i made delicious salad for dinner and am excited to go to my school placement tomorrow. i missed it last week. learning in school is legit right now. lots of new information is being thrown my way and i'm *sort of* applying it to my life.

i'm off to chicago to hang with neal. we will go to lucero friday, see the christian dior collection at the chicago historical society, go to too much light..., drink beers, buy new boots, celebrate my birthday early (it's the 11th in case you wanted to come to celebrate in boston), drink beers, and generally bro.

i'm a bad mom...

2006-10-30T11:37:00.000-05:00

where does depression hurt? everywhere
who does depression hurt? everyone - including my baby plants. there are a few that are thriving, otherwise, they are struggling. my jade plant is the only one that looks healthy.

this is the most stressful week of all time. work hard play hard.
as long as i drag myself out of bed i should be able to get it all mediocrely done.

how am i supposed to know what to do?

2006-10-22T17:00:00.000-04:00

i haven't felt this terrible in five years. then it took me many months to recover. i went "straight edge" according to emily and patty and became withdrawn. i still have a residual panic feeling every time the spring comes because of that time. i really hope this time is different and it won't be so bad, but i'm not sure that i am so lucky. i've just been drinking and hanging out with friends (almost the opposite of last time), but i'm not sure that will help or compound the fact that i already feel like shit. being drunk sure makes it a lot easier to cry. i'm incredibly hopeless and helpless to improve any of the situations and that means that shit is just falling apart and that i have to let it. i'm learning that "life is not fair" and that really loving people = ouch.

i am quitting my phone because if i don't use it at all i wont be tempted to call justin and bug him. i know he wants to be left alone but it hurts a lot. "it hurts, it hurts bad."

in thinking about that break up: i've never had a breakup where i've just been sad. usually i'm angry and i get mean. i pick fights with everyone around me when i'm upset about things. i like to fight because it makes me feel better to hurt and challenge other people. in the end, fighting with people shows who your real friends are and how they feel about you. right now, unfortunately, i can't get myself to be mad, get angry, and fight. this time, while i have been/said mean things on occassion, i'm being much nicer and sadder than i am just being angry and mean. i think that this means that i really do love him, that i really would do anything to help him feel better (including make myself internally endure the anger aggression resentment etc because i know it won't solve anything with him). this makes me happy to think that i am actually in love but immensely crushed to think that all i can do to make him feel better and to make me happy (eventually-this will take a long time to come to terms with) is to let him go. does the world really work this way? so many things are out of peoples' hands (sickness, death, etc), but interpersonal relationships are not (this one is not out of his hands), so why not live it up? why hurt two people when in reality everyone can just be happy? why break up with someone that "you love, of course" that loves you back? i'm desperate to understand.

amy, i really am sorry i missed your party and your birthday.

clevo, see you soon...

after i get sick i just get sad.

2006-10-18T13:31:00.000-04:00

I secretly really love emergency trips home. They are always unexpected and a good excuse to spend a lot of money on a plane ticket. You can fly out whatever time is most convenient for you and maybe even pay to upgrade. You suffer this luxury in your bank account, but I appreciate it because its so impulsive but necessary.

I have a really strange itchy hand syndrome right now...

more fun than blood loss

2006-10-14T18:08:00.000-04:00

1. ny next weekend. emily, marissa, selena, megan, jenko and hopefully patty.
2. on a bender - dumped - down and out.
3. first experience with vermouth.
4. paint fumes.

here is the good news part two

2006-10-13T02:16:00.000-04:00

my birthday is soon and there will be a party on saturday the 21st. jacqueline, come! other internet friends, come! jacqueline i will make you a nest in the kitchen.

i'll go over and egg gordon's house now. got nothing better to do.

i've become such a pussy since noble came back to the states. i mean, i've lost my hanging-out-without-my-boyfriend edge. i don't know if i've lost it. but it is a little bit dull. i'm not used to spending weekends alone. see? total pussy.

hmm, eggs and nests.

alone. yes this will be my first weekend in new york without noble since his return, and it feels weird. it shouldn't feel weird. and you're never really alone if you have coffee. coffee is a friend. and friends are also friends.

coffee. i am stuck reading this book that i'm reading. it's by michelle tea. the reason i'm stuck is that the chapter i'm up to starts with a really great and elaborate description of how wonderful coffee can make you feel, so i want to save reading it for a morning when i'm drinking coffee. but mostly i read before falling asleep at night, and when i wake up i mostly don't have time to read, so i have not progressed past this chapter. tea on coffee. haHA.

okay, off to egg gordo.

fuckin hoodrats.

2006-10-11T20:38:00.000-04:00

i am talking to gordo on the internet. can you believe that?
i told him that you (amy) would egg his house for talking shit about emily. could you do that for me? i know you're up late anyway...

in other news, this is the good news: Oct 30 - Boston, MA @ Middle East (18+). the hold steady. my new jam. etc.

in other news, my life is code red: im probably about to get dumped.

i like dead spies, i keep a grip on my rice

2006-10-10T23:04:00.000-04:00

last night i was at work until 2:30 am. tonight i will probably also be at work until 2:30 am. but it's okay because my job is watching tv. and it starts in the evening. and i get a cab voucher.

i feel bad for chris though because i am going to wake him up and try and get him to hang out with me when i get home. we rented repo man, which is the best movie.

today i ate the falafel that i've heard a lot of hype about and it lived up to the hype, which was nice. also i went shopping at office ops and got a red polo shirt. i like not working during the day.

in philadelphia last weekend i saw a guy read a poem about encouraging crows to eat his babies. i bought the book, and it's great. it was a good weekend. fake chicken sandwich, good bars, good bookstores, strange literary events, etc.

and i'm almost 23. come to the city i will have a party ok.

zombies

2006-10-06T16:25:00.000-04:00

amy, you should make paper zombies.

I heard you quit your old job to start asking men about their lite beer preferences again. is this true? because if so, thats gross - i hate lite beer.

i really really need a nap. i got two a's. all the people in my "class" are "crazy." i can't stand them.

my room is clean and i don't think its possible to have a cooler room than mine right now. i could live in it forever. also - i considered living in the shower yesterday and i really think kramer was on to something.

also, i love my car.

dishes

2006-10-04T01:29:00.000-04:00

hey jacqueline!

hey anybody else too!

i have a MOUNTAIN of dirty dishes in the sink. which is why i'm writing on the internet instead of washing them.

so i quit my job and it was a great decision to make. if you are thinking hey maybe i should quit my job, i would say that you probably should. i'm now training for the aforementioned ridiculous night writer job at the ad agency. today i had to watch one tree hill. from now on, my workday will start at 7pm. yesss.

yesterday i wrote my first-ever sonnet. i left it on tasha's voicemail but i don't think she's listened to it yet.

if anyone wants to hit me up with some new things to try making out of paper (JACQUELINE?), please do that. i'm tired of only cranes, swans, whales, eels, balloons, and triceratopses.

and now i will wash the dishes.

2006-09-28T21:29:00.000-04:00

amy get in touch with me. i have some pretty funny ideas for a comic for you to draw.

phrenic nerves.

2006-09-27T23:17:00.000-04:00

i really am quite happy that all 4 of the project runways got to stay in for fashion week. really, i wanted uli out, and since she won that would put michael (my favorite) or jeffrey (dramatic) out. phew...pulled through on that one. now all i've got is a head cold, wedding (justin's brother's), emily marko's visit (this weekend), two exams (monday and tuesday) and a paper (wednesday) to make it through in the next week.

i am ALIVE

2006-09-23T12:35:00.000-04:00

and WELL!

I have started school at Tufts University. I spend about 24 hours in class, and 20 hours working. I am busy and tired and stressed most of the time and it's only been three weeks. I have two and a half more years.

Justin has a hurt back and has been sleeping over a lot lately (we think that is the cause of the hurt back). He has gotten tattoo ink all over my bed sheets the last two nights and I am not very happy about it. I think he has a blog.

Our house is really cool and cute. My room has a jungle theme that is much better than the jungle party thrown two years ago at dearborn when I had pneumonia and when Aaron was a dick - I suppose he sometimes still is.

We get a dogin exactly 3 days. Amy, you can't touch it. It's a pitbull and may eat your face off (ears too).

cowboy cookies

2006-08-31T13:34:00.000-04:00

i brought cookies in to work today. they're pretty amazing. ginger oatmeal chocolate almond coconut.

jacqueline disappeared again. where are you, kishstein?

this weekend i'm going to philadelphia again. chris has the nicest apartment in the world. everything in his neighborhood is falling apart and there are a lot of murals. last time, we went to ray's happy birthday bar and i sang ace of base.

i like living near lex. i brought her some cookies last night and played katamari.

i'm thinking more and more about applying to school. i may even buy a gre book. wow! i mean, i'm pretty sure i'm gonna go to school, but i'm thinking of going sooner rather than later.

i'm taking a writing class that starts next week. we'll see how that goes.

if i quit my job, i'm thinking i could get this crazy night editing job and volunteer at a small press during the day. or smoke crack. the only problem would be the no health insurance. huh.

my roommate is going to be a villain in the new dc comics superhero movie. amazing. i hope he gets a cape and wears it around the apartment.

okay, gonna go browse the craigslist free list for kittens again.

i was a very nervous child...

2006-08-03T14:35:00.000-04:00

i got mauled by the cyclone last night. my boss just asked "oh my god what happened to your leg?" and i had to say "um, i rode the cyclone. don't ever sit in the last seat." that thing is a monster. i'm all bruised and cut up.

i'm leaving for the airport straight from work! my roommate is supposed to messenger me a noguchi lamp (= wedding present) that he got me for 80% off, but it hasn't come yet.

looks like i'll be able to get there on time, too. cool!

hello, portland.

outdoor concert sunburn

2006-07-31T17:48:00.000-04:00

two outdoor concerts, gravel and sandals. left shoulder more sunburned than the right. now i've seen of montreal four times. aside from sunlandic songs, why did they have to play "old people in the cemetary" and a gnarls barkley cover? why not "doing nothing" and a good cover? but i shouldn't complain, it was for free and with good company. tonight: ambitious plans to cook the baby eggplants and compare lives with tasha while packing for the west. i wish i were going for longer. 69 love songs has been in the bathroom boombox for a while. two out of three cds have gone missing, though. new roommate moving in soon, new pots and pans. at work found out today we're hiring an additional editor for our list, which seems like pretty good news because the dynamic of a two-person (just me + boss) department has been weird. i went to a funeral a few weeks ago, first burial service i'd ever seen. how you push the first mounds of dirt with the back of the shovel to show it's something you don't want to do. a hillock of fried potatoes. chris read that in a fantasy book when he was little and now when he makes fried potatoes he thinks "i am making a hillock of fried potatoes." i just found out that the nypl has a copy of all the issues of the floating bear (diane di prima's mimeographed lit mag from the olden times) and i'm pretty excited about that, maybe i'll go tomorrow. it's reference, though. i think that means xeroxing. i never really learned research skills. okay, bye!

in case you didn't know...

2006-07-23T11:47:00.000-04:00

cleveland is really cool. best 48 hours ever.

my beach day

2006-07-21T14:06:00.000-04:00

is half ruined by laziness and sweatiness. i'm off to clevo in a bit for a huge party and super fun hang out at punk rock flea market. i have to catch a plane but i don't know who will pick me up from the airport.

i spent the better part of this week in rockport at the beach with maybe one of the cutest two year olds on he planet.

see ya.

vacation time soon

2006-07-15T01:20:00.000-04:00

in a few weeks i'm going to: portland and san francisco and los angeles.

cool!

if anyone has a really great place to go or thing to do near one of these cities, tell me. and if anyone lives in one of these cities, TELL ME.

tomorrow we're painting the kitchen yellow.

i'm still alive!

2006-07-11T21:01:00.000-04:00

vital signs:

-ipod definitely broken
-sad and headphoneless, but
-happier than i was yesterday
-sandals are finally worn in
-yep, what jacqueline said, about the sweat
-actually, though, i just got an airconditioner and it's pretty awesome
-running late, ahhh!

okay bye

AMY WHERE ARE YOU NOW?

2006-07-01T11:59:00.000-04:00

I'm packing my bags and going on vacation.
I had a bad cold now I have a bad cough.
Thanks, friend, for the tick/first aid pins. I love them.
SEE YA

all this sweat means i'm alive.

2006-06-17T16:12:00.000-04:00

if you're wondering why i haven't blogged, i would answer you that apparently, the museum of science has what patrick calls a "blogging problem." the only website that is blocked from its employees is "blogger.com" which means that my posts have gone from many to none...
but why not blog at home, you ask?
well, the answer to that question is that the upstairs friends moved out, and the internet moved on with them, to paris i think.

and if you're wondering how i'm doing, i am wonderful. so far this summer, i got to hang in chicago for five wonderfully hot and sweaty days, got to hang in clevo for five not so hot, but still wonderful days. tomorrow i am going to the beach, and i've been riding bikes a lot.

if you're wondering about how my job is, i'd tell you that my job is really pretty cool. i get to hang out with kids, hang out in the scary basement, go to pretty much every single museum in boston for free, and chill out on the internet researching space science and education. also, i get paid a whole lot and i only work 5-6 hours a day when i'm supposed to be there for about 7 hours a day. can you beat that?

if you're wondering how i'm feeling, well, i'd tell you, "live life. punk forever."

if you're (beth is) wondering if i give a shit, i'd tell you, i mean, i'm also pretty serious about not giving a shit right now. p.s. i'm really really really real. and really pretty serious about fun.

what happened, miss kish?

2006-06-12T00:17:00.000-04:00

where's your little blog face?

let's hear it for
+ the puerto rican day parade
+ driving lessons
+ roommates current and future (and past too)
+ the path to my greatness
+ the jesus and mary chain
+ old books that seem new again
+ nailpolish
+ pizza
+ getting the steamboat up the mountain

tonight we said we'd make a sign for the subway that said

DR. BERKOWITZ AND DR. NELSON: TOE DOCTORS.
HEY, IF WE FUCK UP, IT'S JUST YOUR TOE.

tropical vacation suitcase

2006-05-30T00:43:00.000-04:00

hey! i had such a good time in boston! thank you so much for hanging out with me if i saw you there. it was great!

i'm sorry you weren't around, jacq, but it sounds like you're holding it down solid wherever you are. i missed you in bean town. come to brooklyn soon. no! not brookline! i said brooklyn.

stuff in boston:

made a crepe at paris creperie. it was terrible and they threw it in the trash.
dinner with cousin and webster and six or seven surprise guests at matt murphey's which is great and has bunny paintings
gave aaron a GREAT haircut
found a washington DC bag for megan at urban renewal
indian food!
made a friend on the bus named annie (also, eric)
interviewed this guy noah in his bathroom and screamed a lot
watched my best fiend with no pants on with a bunch of people. i mean, no one had pants on.
made a kinski face
monen sleepovers and giggling and fighting
roof hangouts
dart game at on the hill. five dollar pitchers, oh gosh.
parachini said shakira reminded him too much of a goat
is rock dead?
breakfast with khury! he wore a shirt with sequins on it and got me excited about education for social justice. turns out he's read "beyond resistance!" which i wrote the back cover copy for!
went crazy with my new cassette recorder and now i have recordings of a glass harmonica and webster rapping outside matt murphey's on webster place. a car went by with the radio up loud and i said ahhhh there goes your beats!

i love you.

cause and effect.

2006-05-29T23:11:00.000-04:00

cause: four successful years of college.
primary effect: graduation.
secondary effect: family 'vacation' to boston.
tertiary effect: parties, food, exhaustion.

cause: drunken bike riding, poor balance.
primary effects: huge crash, pain, blood.
secondary effects: cool bandages, muscle relaxants, postponing vacation.
tertiary effects: intense sleeping, negative mood, lonliness.

cause: age between 18-22
primary effect: eligibility to fly cheap standby from boston to chicago.
secondary effect: flight saturday may 27th.
tertiary effects: visits to zach and neal
quadernary effects: seeing "too much light makes the baby go blind," eating delicious food, fun shopping, drinking at amazing bars, buying alcohol past 11 pm, walking millions of miles, wearing dresses, falling in love with chicago and all it has to offer. (i feel like i belong here in the midwest - the last four (to six) years in boston have been a hilarious joke.)

let me see those titties bounce, bounce, bounce, bounce, let me see those titties SHAKE!

2006-05-26T10:38:00.000-04:00

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

i got to work an hour late today. no one's even in the fucking office anyway. i was listening to gravy train!!!! on the train this morning and it made me even giddier and less psyched about being inside and concentrating on work. but unfortunately i have a bunch of stuff that actually needs to get done today. mannnnn.

office closes at three.

hey jacqueline, ever try BLOGGING?

i've heard it is cool?

yo i'm coming to boston fri-mon please hang out with me thanks okay

2006-05-25T23:38:00.000-04:00

"do whatever you want with the drums. fuck with the drums as much as you want. it's like the same fucking BEAT."

that's what marco's saying right now.

suddenly it seems like everyone i know is making music. it's nice.

also, here's why i love tasha more than anyone:

Tasha: the drawing of comics is needed badly

esp since i cant find a therapist

Sent at 9:09 AM on Thursday

Tasha: my ex bf sent me a txt yesterday

after ive been actively ignoring him for ever

he just wanted me to know he was eating pizza with john linnell. wtf!

how depraved is that?!

Sent at 9:13 AM on Thursday

2006-05-15T12:34:00.000-04:00

the bad news is, my roommate realized she's not actually going to get a kitten.

the good news is, i am going to start a garden on the roof. what should i grow in it, besides basil? jacqueline i know you are going to say pot.

things are pretty good here, except the rain finally hit us today, and it's really dark outside even though it's lunchtime. i saw harry and the potters yesterday, and they're a lot better than they have any right to be. a little kid got excited about hugging and hugged alena. it was great. alena invited herself over for a rooftop harvest dinner party once things actually grow up there, so you all can come, too. how long do vegetables take to grow?

"this is the worst vacation ever."

2006-05-15T00:53:00.000-04:00

so far senior week is off to a great start!

watch out for the triple crown triathalon coming up. it may involve any of the following: swimming, biking, beer drinking, running up the down escalator, running down the up escalator, sprinting, eating, donuts, the tisch, rain, dressing or undressing, reality tv, the davis, bars, "the beer mile," "the donut mile," fights, drama, 6 movie marathon, 3 way ties.

2006-05-11T21:11:00.000-04:00

1. don't ever make fun of my sister. yes, she has downsyndrome. yes, she is also having a hilarious time in this photograph. no, she has never looked more "retarded" in her life, but that was the point! don't you get it?

2. turnaround: i may be coming to ny on saturday. be in touch. i'll call you tomorrow.

3. is it possible that i am having an allergic reaction to thai food?

3.5. is drinking a whole lot of water somehow a sign that you are having an allergic reaction?

4. less than 24 hours until the end of my undergraduate career here at tufts university.

4.5. less than 24 hours until the coolest field trip of my entire life.

5. my family is coming in a week and i am really psyched about it. sox game. shopping. museums. eating good food. getting wasted. throwing parties. sweet!

nocturne al

2006-05-10T22:59:00.000-04:00

1. too bad about the jacqueline-free weekend, but i'll see you soon enough babydoll. make that two handjobs.

2. http://criticalanglefilms.com/videos/armadillonocturne_qt_small.mov DUDE WATCH IT.

3. i got acupuncture for the first time yesterday. here's a tip: don't move your legs when there are needles in them! no! not even if they are itchy or something.

4. carly ptak invited herself over to dinner monday night and it was delightful. i made seitan green bean curry and i still have leftovers. i think she talked my roommate into dropping out of college.

5. i invited calvin johnson to the party on saturday. he can't make it, but he wrote back telling us to "DANCE ON!"

6. today i got a mailbox key so you can now START SENDING PRESENTS.

7. last night me and three other editorial assistants all dreamed about puppies.

8. i am learning to drive! slowly! but! surely!

9. emily left a streetcar named desire on my pillow so i read it on the way to and from steph's party on saturday. it was amazing. now i want to see the movie, and read it again, and build a subway that connects bushwick with parkslope so i don't have to detour through manhattan.

10. lightning bolt was good. geoff is good at initiating conversations that consist solely of lightning bolt riffs.

newsflash

2006-05-10T22:19:00.000-04:00

in the course of a week baby charlotte has learned to crawl, and pull herself up to standing position. she also does this incredibly cute snorting thing and laughs whenever you pant like a dog.

in other news, due to the lack of funds, interest in drinking beer, and considering my parents will be in town for like 5 days this coming weekend, i gotta stay in boston this weekend. i will come a different weekend and for sure bring the rage. sorry to disappoint! i'll make it up to you via handjob or something.

we're off to the sligo. i need to feel assured i will suffer all day tomorrow from a hangover while starting and finishing two huge assignments in order to graduate. may as well live the last day of work as i have the rest of the school year.

I wanna chew my bubble gum with you.
And I wanna walk you home from school.
And I wanna carry your books to every class.
And I wanna fuck you up the ass.
Girl, don't you know it's true, how much I love you.
I wanna sing it 'cross the land, oh won't you hold my hand?
She tells me that she loves me,
Now I'm gonna tell her that I love her.
She tells me that she loves me,
Now I'm gonna try and fuck her.
But where the hell are my priorities?
Left in the hands of the authorities.

pollen count?

2006-05-08T20:51:00.000-04:00

have you ever had that terrible feeling where the inside of your ear itches to the point that it is almost your throat? you know there is no way you can make the dull burn itch feeling stop so you try to swallow, make terrible hacking noises, and try to cough to make it go away, but none of that works. instead, you have to grin and bare it. i've been experiencing this feeling for the last two hours.

i had my nose in middlesex all weekend, and i really couldn't study until i finished it (500+ pgs). patrick made me broccoli and i will head to the library.

"that was music, i swear."

2006-05-08T01:43:00.000-04:00

lightning bolt was wonderful, and so was my last james dinner and the japanese potato salad. also: nautical almanac was wonderful, and there was this moment where the guy was drooling and sort of falling over and people said "i think he is going to die" and the girl was playing (sort of) the violin very slowly with huge arm gestures and i said to myself "oh, this must be zombie music. yes, this is what zombies listen to. i get it." also, moshe's was open so we got hamentaschen on the way. sadly, though, seeing lightning bolt meant missing my roommate's band (againnnnn), but she'll probably have another show soon? she wore my shirt to this one, though, so i guess we're even. okay, i'm going to bed now. my boss is back and i have to be awesome tomorrow. one of my work pals said "amy, seriously, maybe you should buy a nice black blazer -- you could even buy a used one -- and just put it on every time you go into her office." okay guys, goodnight.

hit the ground running

2006-05-08T00:41:00.000-04:00

i had a really fun day. the spring has me hyped enough to really be into sea foam green. it's really more of a blue in most cases, but i like it.

hey, we'll pull through.

2006-05-05T18:49:00.000-04:00

what does one do about a persisting sore throat (possibly) due to consumption of alcohol?

i'm still not through with any of my classes.

new fridge, brand new era, feels great

2006-05-04T23:00:00.000-04:00

i'm listening to a mix cd from my internet friend and it's really good. it's the first mix i've gotten in a long time, and i forgot how good they can be. i like that there's an additional layer of meaning: there's the significance of all the individual songs, just the same as if you'd heard them on the album or on the radio, but then there's the significance of which songs were chosen, and in what order, and so on. hey, this has captain beefheart on it!

my apartment smells incredibly strange. oh. this is because emily put tahini in the stirfry. that's a terrible idea. was it good? no.

tonight me and tasha snuck 22 oz beers into teriyaki boy. and then we didn't see drawing restraint 9.

we got a new fridge! this weekend, i plan to scrub the floor, like in the olden days. because the swiffer didn't do shit. i also want to cook eggplant. and marco's having a party on saturday! and fkkn lightning bolt on sunday!

there's no need to name names.

2006-05-02T11:26:00.000-04:00

last night a pal tried to convince me to "come over" to cleveland so that we could "make things beautiful" (fuck) and then get married because we would get along swimmingly due to the fact that we're both huge assholes. plus i'm "alright looking" and "my mother loves him." he'd admittedly cheat on me a lot and i'd probably "just get used to it and start cheating myself." " hey everyones gotta have atleast one divorce." that's no matter because he'd stay home and take care of the kids while i worked because he knows im a "complaining little bitch" and wouldn't want to change diapers. he denies he would spend the entire time drinking beer and convincing our kids that metal is cool, but we both know that would be his primary purpose. we'd probably have cute dogs though.

i told him that i'd think about it. the marriage thing i mean.

funny! funny?

2006-05-01T00:09:00.000-04:00

i got this from a friend yesterday and it made me laugh really hard. i'm not sure if it is actually funny.

Hey Jackie O,

When are you coming to O-Hi-O. You know I love the female figure.

Cyrus

Also, i really like the new aloha record. i wasn't sure if i would, and on the first listen i wasn't hot on it, but now, wow. it's smokin.

"it was cool, but still kind of sucky."

2006-04-30T13:12:00.000-04:00

the ups of yesterday included spring fling, delicious snacks, falling down a dirt hill on my bike, emily getting dissed by a blind kid, mount eerie (the tickets themselves were enough to make it an up), riding bikes, new friends, babysitting, and watching zoolander.

i just jacked a bunch of music from patrick and bought some on itunes. amy, patty and i went to see this guy don lennon thursday that you probably would have really liked. his first album is all about parties, and his second album is all about his first album. he didn't crack a smile the whole set, yet we were all dying laughing.

don't talk to me for 10 years.

shoshonna's got a real job, dag don't you know?

2006-04-28T10:05:00.000-04:00

last night i went to my parents' apt to show them the movie (armadillo nocturne, mhm). and my dad told me some stuff that explains a lot of stuff. ultimately it's good because my parents are finally being honest with me, but at the same time it's disturbing because on a superficial level, it was easier not to know about the shit that was going down, and it's hard to hear about how much pain and difficulty all this generated for the last, shit, 20 years? but at least now i understand... and i guess i'm pretty angry at both my dad and my mom for not being open about it with me until last night.

anyway, i'm sorry that was really vague. i just needed to type it somewhere, i haven't actually confessed the details to more than a couple people, so don't feel left out if you have no idea what i'm talking about.

now let me move on to a new topic, something more light-hearted, and more interesting for you, dear reader: de la soul.

oh man. they are amazing. i don't know why i thought 3 feet high was their only good album (ummm actually i do know why: because allmusic.com is consistantly wrong). but i just got ...is dead the other day and it owns.

how can you write a song better than "bitties in the BK lounge?" you can't. and if you think about the history of music, you'll realize that nobody has done it yet.

at the tisch

2006-04-26T20:39:00.000-04:00

is it a little strange that the tisch library of tufts university has the lightning bolt dvd?

i should really talk to the programmers that made the search program for the library database. it really isn't user friendly for those of us who don't quite know what we would like to watch. although, sometimes this fact makes finding a gem the highlight of your already awesome day.

hopes and dreams

2006-04-25T14:44:00.000-04:00

1. if i ever (god forbid) got really sick and was granted a wish by that organization, i would wish to explore the tunnels of the NYC subway system with david byrne and missy elliott.

2. i think i'm starting an indie pop band. tiernan, learn how to play something, k?

i danced with the claims and you danced with the fish you danced with the fish

2006-04-25T11:30:00.000-04:00

HEY GUYS

i'm having a BEAT HAPPENING DANCE PARTY in the next few weeks at my friend mike's house in queens.

you should come! it's the opportunity of a LIFETIME!

hint: this is worth coming to new york city for, boston kids.

if you're really planning on coming and dancing, tell me! this could be done via comment!

rewind review

2006-04-23T10:54:00.000-04:00

arwen really is the one needing to get her bike blessed. she crashed again.

last night emily and i spent a considerable amount talking about film and about music reviews. i mentioned how proud i am of you amy that you wrote that thing. it's good and i'm glad to read your opinion on it.

at the end of the conversation emily says "i really want to and should call amy." and i said "i know. me too."

blessed bikes, decade transcending

2006-04-21T19:00:00.000-04:00

tomorrow is the blessing of the bikes at the cathedral of st. john the divine.

for real! http://www.gothamist.com/archives/2006/04/21/bless_your_bike.php

but i can't go because i'll be on long island, at joe del senno's grandmother's house, acting in a movie about something. that takes place in some decade. it might be the 30s. it might be the 50s. it might be the 60s, or the 70s. all i know is i'm bringing clothes from all of those decades to long island. on the midnight train.

wtf.

2006-04-17T20:41:00.000-04:00

1. don't call me at work again oh no the boss still hates me i'm just tired and i don't love you anymore and there's a restaurant we should check out where the other nightmare people like to go i mean nice people baby wait i didn't mean to say nightmare!

2. soon i am getting a mailbox!!! that means you can send me cash (as well as other nice, flat things!) and and my neighbors won't steal it!

"she knows things are a changin..."

2006-04-16T20:17:00.000-04:00

i was already let down, and i predict i will be let down again in the near future. i hope i am proven wrong.

my family has a huge tv.

i have to go to the bathroom.

see you in boston on tuesday!

traaaaaade shirts

2006-04-10T17:24:00.000-04:00

ten things that have happened recently/ are happening/ will happen:

1. chris missed his flight to germany yesterday, is (hopefully?) catching another flight today.
2. my bathroom is being renovated and the bathroom sink is in the kitchen, there is no door and no walls and no tiles on the floor, and there is also no shower head and (sometimes) no hot water. i found out that i am permitted to shower in the pizza place downstairs, but have not taken my landlord up on this offer, yet.
3. despite all this, i had a dinner party. spinach pie and baklava for eight. also: baba ganoush. yes, some people had to sit on the floor, and two people sat on the radiator. dinner party ended with a walk to the skee ball bar.
4. i bought a case of beer at the brooklyn brewery (cheap!). see "dinner party," above.
5. tonight i'm making passover food with my mom.
6. the weather got nice! i took a lot of walks. and it turns out it's not such a long walk to the "cool" part of williamsburg. also, it turns out there are at least three used clothing stores in between my part and the cool part, which i will list from worst to best name: alterations, antique clothing, pirate supplies.
7. i went to a mets game.
8. i almost got caught sitting in somebody's hammock on somebody's roof.
9. i might take a trip to providence.
10. dinner with adam, who (somehow) i haven't seen in ages.

stop this car, i'm getting out.

2006-04-08T12:35:00.000-04:00

wow. life has been crazy. i've spent the better part of the last day watching tv, relaxing, drinking beer and fantasizing about sewing/crafting.

this is my new jam. embroidery. sushi. yay!

amy, i really want to visit you sometime when my life isn't crazy and nuts. i can't come next weekend, or the weekend after, so maybe the weekend after! or maybe i'll go to chicago that weekend! woooooo.

you are so stupid and cool.

2006-04-06T00:41:00.000-04:00

i kind of just want to start a blog with pointless phrases that are funny, but don't really mean anything or hold any type of truth.

something like

"yep, i pooped in your sink."

and

"life is like cabbage."

or

"see you next tuesday."

lisa knows a girl who's been abused, it changed her philosophy in '82

2006-04-05T11:27:00.000-04:00

hey remember belle & sebastian?

i haven't thought about them in a while but i was listening to them last night and it made me think of two summers ago when we were at emily good's cabin up by rochester and tigermilk was on the car stereo the whole time, and the beginning of that album reminds me of tying the kayaks to the top of the car and driving to the lake.

if it stops snowing, i'm going to the mets game tonight. it will be the first major league baseball game i've gone to (i once saw a minor league game. both teams were named after birds; i forget which birds).

and alexis is coming to visit! it's too bad i don't have a couch for her to sleep on.

2006-04-04T14:23:00.000-04:00

hey! it's springtime.

i just found out my rent-paying protocol involves giving an envelope of money to the guys at the pizza place downstairs. awesome.

today we might take the ferry to staten island to eat goat, depending on the weather.

i'm making spanikopeta (spelling?) this weekend to lure people out to bushwick. that means you.

work is all right. things are pretty good! i would not mind having a puppy.

that's about it.

i ain't tellin you a secret.

2006-03-30T14:13:00.000-05:00

i'm hot on dinosaur jr right now. things seem to be a bit complicated and busy. i guess it's just that time of year. thanks to jek and gb for picking me up and making me get coffee and listening to all of the words i had to get out. it made my day better. i'm having trouble dealing with incompetent professors. you know the drill.

amy where are you? no more urban blogging?

2006-03-28T18:26:00.000-05:00

riding my bike is better than hot sex. better than me in my sailor suit even.

photographic evidence.

2006-03-27T22:49:00.000-05:00

these are two of my favorite shells and seaweeds. i will post more later.

today was fun and no fun at the same time. turns out my asthma is classified as terrible not only by me, but by doctors too. i go on 2 new meds tomorrow and both suck. antibiotics and steroids. i can't wait for the yeast infection or puffy face to start!

i cut class, got dinner with emily, got drinks with emily and greg, played checkers (greg killed me), rode my scooter home, and now i'm going to bed early. maybe i'll actually get something done. don't you love when spring hits and you get "senioritis."

back

2006-03-26T01:50:00.000-05:00

back in boston. i feel great. well right now i'm tired and still a bit sick, but i'm going to bed. i'll post pictures soon. don't you love the beach? and don't you love that i'll graduate?

how i met lucas

2006-03-24T09:32:00.000-05:00

last night, me and chris got back to my apartment with a bunch of groceries from m2m and the blender we "borrowed" from my mom, and there was a cat out in the hall. he looked very excited to see us and ran in little circles around us, nuzzling our bags of groceries.

me: um, open the door.
chris: i can't. the cat will come in. you have to go distract it.
[i try unsuccessfully to lead the cat down the hallway]
chris: cats are smart, amy.
me: well, just let it come in. i wouldn't mind having a cat.
[chris sighs. we stand in the hallway, not sure what to do. the cat continues to nuzzle our groceries. finally, after a couple minutes, we hear a voice calling down the staircase: "kitty! kitty!" a guy comes down stairs and picks up the cat.]
guy: i'm sorry. he always does this.
me: it's okay. what's his name?
guy: it's luke. lucas. [then, addressing the cat, and rubbing its belly, playfully admonishing] lucas, you fag.
[guy heads upstairs]
guy: goodnight.
me: goodnight.
[we get into my apartment and put the groceries down]
me: did he just call his cat a fag?

urban

2006-03-22T09:49:00.000-05:00

and while jacqueline takes care of beach blogging (via smoke signal) this week, i'll be on top of urban blogging.

i am in new york city, where i usually am.

and two nights ago i went to a poetry reading to see dave and mark doty read at kgb bar and right when i got there this dude was like "i am taking pictures of girls with good style for jane magazine" and i said yeah he could take my picture, so he took my picture and then i went down to the atm on the corner to take out money (i had no money for beer), and came back and the reading had started and i was like "oh shit" and i stood in the doorway (it was really crowded) and listened and then the photographer dude handed me a release form to sign with some questions on it (typical women's mag ridiculousness) and i filled it out really fast and here's what it looked like (except more illegible):

what's the craziest thing that has happened tonight?
dave is reading

what's in your bag?
my scarf

what music do you listen to while you're getting dressed to go out?
chris corsano

what is the most random thing you think might happen tonight?
meh

so i hand the survey back to the guy, and he starts to walk downstairs to the exit, and i try to slip quietly back into the poetry reading, but THEN i hear the photographer guy running back up the stairs and i see him motion to me so i come back out and he says "you wrote chris corsano? i'm friends with chris corsano! i went to no fun fest this weekend!" i tried to give him a high-five but he didn't seem to understand. awesome.

okay, i have work to do.

just one more thing: i found myself listening to the one iron maiden song on my ipod this morning, repeatedly, and feeling very moved by it. so, can anyone recommend any other metal jams i ought to dl (preferably funny ones). i know you're reading this, people who sort of like metal.

love,
amy

2006-03-18T00:47:00.000-05:00

i'll be gone for the week. i hope i can kick this cold, but if not, atleast i can sun myself while i blow my nose. no internet, no phone, send smoke signals. love.

congratulations!

2006-03-17T11:14:00.000-05:00

today, chris woke me up by saying "congratulations! congratulations!" i was really excited because i figured something great had happened to me! but it turns out he was dreaming.

i'm happy it's friday. i'm happy it's no fun fest. at least, i think i am. here's this thing i wrote about it: http://www.tinymixtapes.com/articles/2006.03.15-no_fun_fest_girlfriend.htm

yesterday at work, i wrote eleven rejection letters. the publishing world is a cold, cold world. today at work, i did not fall asleep at my desk. this is an improvement!

things that are supposed to happen this weekend:
no fun fest
palindrome party (?)
tasha's (?) party
whitney biennial

i don't think this leaves much time for grocery shopping. does anyone want to buy food for me and leave it at my apartment? chris? monen, if you're in the city? i'll cook you dinner, promise.

2006-03-17T02:38:00.000-05:00

new bike. hurt vagina.

you are so cool.

2006-03-14T20:29:00.000-05:00

do you ever wish someone was secretly listening to your thoughts just because they are so goddamned funny? i do, and i have tried numerous times to portray them in type but it never works out quite right. today i've been mischevious.

i feel a lot better about things in general after talking to my mom. she inevitably gave me this confidence boost that only a mom can give. it's her birthday and she really is amazing as a person and as a mom. i wish the rest of my family appreciated her as much as i do.

i just picked off the dead skin left over from a blister and i should have saved it for monen. poor girl. she got hit by a car and broke her arm. she is so tough and so cool.