it's been refreshing...

...i have been reminded that some people do stay the same. it is easy to get stuck thinking "oh people change" as an excuse for their actions, or your own. hes the same friend that i loved when i was 15 that i still love now. we are dead serious and we are hilarious. you never know when you'll catch us. we have the same dynamic and it's easy to neglect.

...and house shows are still house shows. they are made or broken based on who is around, and how you feel. there are so many variables and the atmosphere is hard to control. you never know who will show, and what drama will go down. there was nothing but giggles and i really had to hold back tears last night. i wanted to sit smushed on a couch watching wasted boys wail on guitars and upright bass with my feet numb forever. i really admire people with musical talent. it is really an amazing thing.

...i feel normal filling the house with typewriter noises. i've indulged myself and it finally feels good. make it what you will.