good luck, get fucked

so, we've built up the house from 4 to 6 bros. boys are throwing me for a loop lately: zach took me by surprise just as i had stabilized myself to be "just friends," and justin came over last night and gave me a birthday present "that is shocking." i'm being surprised in good ways that lead to overthinking and transforming into surprised in bad ways. i've been on/off crippled with depression. it is my birthday tomorrow.
i'm going to lay in bed and read a book now. see ya.